ever feel like someone has slipped through your fingers, someone you never had in the first place?

dear diary,
i'm excruciatingly in love right now, with a couple of people.  same as always.  dating sites can be such a waste.  whatever.  oh yes, spoilers, as if anyone reads this:  my lord is either, the evil red woman's slave, a warg for the rest of his life, or an Other.  or was it a prescient dream????

grrm has a penchant for making characters awesome.  why dany just does not run off with daario is just maddening?  if grrm does see this, i would really love it if dany and daario could be together.  just my wish.  we all deserve to find someone as adorable as daario is.  just a silly wish.  i'm so afraid that daario *spoilers* *spoilers* *spoilers*  (like anyone is ready this, anyway.)

my dad died.  i love my dad so much.

have to take one day at a time.
one step at a time.
totally stressed out right now.
feeling alone.

i will be away for a while, but i will return.  i have to catch up on my bills.  i pray that all of us experiencing the financial hardships do not give up on hope.  please, live journal, keep my account open.  thanks :)

they are the most infuriating company.
they always make u feel stupid.
the only nice people there are the field techs.

1 comp is working (sort of) now
the other needs a power switch replacement

i hope lj understands my comps have issues at this time.
i want to be able to keep my journal.
*crosses fingers*